05-July-18 : Prologue

The time has come to arrive to concentrate on ENGLISH as it' really is shattering my future carrier path. I'm not quite sure to say I MUST study English but have to say, with a bit stressful, I need to know how to study English PROPERLY. It was quite frustrating when I delivered the thought of mine to others, usually, the moment I bring up something in front, it usually gives them a signal saying 'focus, or you won't get what I'm transmitting'. that face that looks like starting to focused doesn't give me satisfactory when I finish a conversation. 

Looking at some of my colleague who's spent their youth in American school, these guys are one lucky bastard. they don't have to spend any extra their valuable time on studying Language on which I"m spending tremendous time. However, to be able to go further and farther from where I'm standing, I need to boost my English in a better way. 

Anyway, here's what I think it is to be done and will be done by myself in terms of English study.

1. Writing

it encompasses all parts of a foreign language not only for writing a text itself but also a logical way of thinking, creating a thought which will eventually bring you to next level. 

writing skill has to be prioritized when it comes to studying English as you only can speak what you can write. that is what i've learned so far for last five years of studying this god damn language. 

if anybody asks me what do I really want to achieve by recording all my daily though, via Tistory, the only thing I'm expecting to get is having fluent and more versatile usage of the words. 

I, from time to time, feel that the range of my word that I speak is quite narrow and limited. so even sometimes I feel like the level of mine is almost as same as kids in the kinder garden. such a disappointment to the overseas worker who's been working almost five years.

To improve the writing skill, I would need a help from the native to look and see what's wrong in my writings. however, that's not going to happen unless I pay 20$/hour which I will never spend. therefore the writings that will be uploaded on this column will have lots of grammatical errors. but suppose this is what best I can do for now.

2. Speaking

Deep down in my mind, I always wanted to hang out with a native speaker but I barely had a change. considering the fact that I already work together with Scottish and Irish, it doesn't give me any chance to improve because they don't take an account my poor English skills which are not satisfactory for them to speak with. How poor and sorry my condition and situation is.